Category Archives: Poetry

forgiveness (for tk)

Posted on January 11, 2022 by jswaingrass78

exhaustion comes in waves like the silent puddles at doran beach in july. i have spent too much time wanting an apology when perhaps, i should have apologized. regardless, this is the time to understand the journey of our eyes, … Continue reading →

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autobiography

Posted on January 9, 2022 by jswaingrass78

i think, if there’s anything i’ve learned since late october is that’s its not good for me to seek out. seek within instead. a dear friend today told me that lightning struck years after a similar brutal end of a … Continue reading →

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housecleaning

Posted on January 7, 2022 by jswaingrass78

she arrives, starts and i am trying to login to therapy because covid/world/etc i say, hold on to each of them start a session and what in the hell is this world anyway she starts with each room stares back … Continue reading →

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doomscrolling

Posted on January 6, 2022 by jswaingrass78

why do I torture myself? why can’t I just let go? is it because she got me in a sense more than anyone? is it because I’m still in her bed? is it my age, is it regret? I am … Continue reading →

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my heart

Posted on January 6, 2022 by jswaingrass78

is in a million pieces and just when I start to put it back together it breaks again.

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puzzle

Posted on November 29, 2021 by jswaingrass78

make it fit he says the pieces like my sister like the way roads wind and you help me to sleep he says and i press on there are mileposts that we haven’t seen some nissan truck in 1994 or … Continue reading →

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bondage

Posted on November 27, 2021 by jswaingrass78

bondage in a different world we’re lovers supportive watching the trees as they nod until I become a masochist until you become the psychopath and hunt me down. until that happens i will hit myself forgive my past injuries until … Continue reading →

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over easy

Posted on November 23, 2021 by jswaingrass78

here, let’s talk about things scrambled or sunny side up?can you pretend to hear me over the sound of cooking the recipes you bought me without receipts?or would it be better for you as you bake this new cake of life and … Continue reading →

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remote

Posted on November 23, 2021 by jswaingrass78

remote it’s all virtualright? screens are lifelonging for touchfrom her or fromanyone it’s funny how a year workscalendars are lost just asleaves bring autumn in andfrost arrivesleaves us in place. the point is, I don’t havea calendarbut I do have … Continue reading →

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owl

Posted on November 21, 2021 by jswaingrass78

Originally posted on Tidal Waves Don't Beg Forgiveness:
Owlmy son and i play a game guess the animal as I drive him through my stages of grief.sea creature he says and I watch redwoods ripping by in my cardeer, I say incorrect,…

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